22 March 2009

Wall of Wondering, part II

I saw my Gram today at my cousin's priesthood ordination. She commented to me that I looked happier than she had seen me in a long time.

Why do you suppose that is?
I wonder...is it because...
...of all the work I'm doing to turn my mind towards acceptance?
...yesterday was a more accepting day?
...I am still feeling accepting of myself today?
...I'm realizing that there is freedom in knowing who I am?
...I'm relaxing more and spending time with friends?
...I actually wore my hair down today?
...my niece woke me up on Saturday and Sunday and she just makes me happy?
...I got all dressed up for church?

I don't know.

Am I happier than I've been in a long time?
Or does it just appear that way?