14 October 2009

Feeling the Stress

I think that pretty much says it all.

Because the conversation with my parents was so short, I feel like I have a lot more that I need to say, so I'm working on a letter. Maybe that's a chicken way to cover everything but I think that's the best way to have it go down. Then they can do whatever they want with that information. If they're not going to speak to me, I can at least make it for all the right reasons instead of the ones they're imagining.

My middle sister hasn't talked, texted, or contacted me in any way since I sent her that email.

My youngest sister has been my lifeline.

Despite it all, my girlfriend has been amazing, has been there for me, and has promised me that we're going to get through it together. And because of that, even though I'm really stressed, I think it's going to be okay. Every day I get up and it gets a little easier to just be me. What other people say and do will probably always affect me, but it's not going to change who I am.

Someday I hope it won't be so stressful. I just have to get there, one day at a time.


Hidden said...

I'm so glad your girlfriend is there for you to help and support you. However, don't forget that you have friends as well, here and willing at a moment's notice. A phone call, a plea to hang out, go somewhere away from stress, we're here and want to help any way we can. Love ya.

alex dumas said...

I still find it hard to believe that people are so dense that they would actually cut all ties with a member of their family because of something like this. Hopefully that's not what happens to you.