I haven't been blogging much lately because I feel like there's been some drama. I am a person who is not about conflict and drama at all, and I hate that there has been drama. I understand it, I understand my part in it, I accept that, but I don't have to like it.
This is mostly because it has come to my attention that I have an audience that I perhaps did not plan on. I've been in a place of indecision and hesitation because of this. I am a person who is still very much a work in progress, I still have a lot of insecurities (even though I'm working on it), and news of these potential readers has put me into a sort of limbo. I've been weighing choices and consequences and trying to determine what I should do with this blog.
I started this blog as an outlet for my feelings, my thoughts, and my reactions to the world I live in. That may not be the same world that you live in. The things I write are purely my perception, and not much else. I don't think that this blog reaches a particularly large audience, but maybe I'm wrong on that.
I have really enjoyed having this blog. I really enjoy being a part of a blogging community and reading the blogs of other people who share similar circumstances. That has been such a blessing for me.
So I don't know what to do yet. I'm still in the middle of the arguments. I really don't want to stop blogging. But I need to figure out what to do and where to go from here.
I hope it isn't the end.