23 May 2009

Center Stage

My coming out story is still in the process of being written. I don't want to be afraid anymore. I don't want to worry so much about what's going to happen when people find out. As I become more comfortable with the knowledge of who I truly am, I become more uncomfortable with having to hide that from other people.

Being honest with myself has changed me so much. I have friends who tell me that I'm not the same person I was a year ago, and they've noticed that I'm happier and more outgoing and they like being around me. I feel better about who I am and I guess it really shows.

So I've been thinking about doing this for a couple weeks.

I created the name "drakames" about four years ago as an online identity. "Drak" comes from one of my favorite literary characters, Dracula. I adopted a quote from him in high school. He said, "I love the shade and the shadow and would be alone with my thoughts when I may." "Ames" is my nickname. So I put the two together and change the pronounciation a little bit, and allow myself to speak my personal truth from within a protective shadow.

Allow me to step into the light.

My name is Amy.

I hope to be able to share more about me in coming posts. I want you to know me for who I really am.


HappyOrganist said...

Hi Amy ;-)
It sure is fun to come up w/ an alias, isn't it. ;-) My own honors 5 different people (5 people, 2 names). ;-D
Glad your friends notice you being more outgoing. That sounds like a good thing. ;-)

Jenz said...

Amy -- you rock! Welcome to the light honey :) I love so many things about this post.